â€œGod can do anything, you knowâ€”far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! â€ – Ephesians 3:20 (MSG)
We started out on a journey to adoption last year as God stirred in our hearts that our family was not yet complete. We have always had a desire to adopt, so that was a no brainer for us, especially after two very difficult pregnancies and initially being told that, due to my diagnosed hormone deficiency, I would not be able to conceive or carry a child on my own. God had shown his power and plan with our two beautiful biological kiddos before, but we had closed the door to the thought that it would ever happen again. With that knowledge and acceptance of this journey solidly set in our minds, we completed our home study and obtained a certification for adoption. We were excitedly waiting and praying for our future baby, whom we expected would join us through a birth mother who had chosen a new life for her baby!
In our waiting process we had our hopes brought up several times, but I still heard in the back of my head and heart â€œJust waitâ€â€¦as if God was smiling as I adjusted and readjusted my plans to bring another child into our familyâ€¦as if I was the one in controlâ€¦yeah, right!!
In May, we were shocked to find out that I had become pregnant without the assistance of hormones, and for the first time had begunÂ a completely healthy and normal pregnancy.
A few things, right out of the gateâ€¦
This does not change our heart for adoption! We still desire to build our family through adoptionâ€¦our timeline is just a little different now!
Also, I know you are fighting the urge to say, â€œThatâ€™s what happens when you try to adopt!â€â€¦I disagree!
When we fully trust God, amazing things will happen that reveal how glorifying His plan can beâ€¦after we get out of the way. Our child did not come about because we had made our minds up about something else…it’s not a magic formula. God creates little people in HIS timing and in the womb of the mama he desires. They are fearfully and wonderfully made, and every single one has a story and a future. It pains me to see so many who throw away the lives of these intentionally created little beings, when each one shows the glory and power of God at work in themâ€¦and they donâ€™t even know it! It’s also disheartening to hear folks who flippantly acknowledge the creation of a new person as a lucky break.
There are many who struggle with infertility that will never be able to conceive on their own, and that absolutely does not make them faithless, nor does itÂ mean that they aren’t trusting God! Ultimately, He knows our hearts, futures, and desires better than we do. As much of a miracle as we feel this pregnancy is, I have met countless families who were brought together through adoption, whose stories are nothing short of a mighty move of God’s hand. All that to say…God makes babies and families. We don’t.Â
While baby and I are still healthy and not requiring hormonal help (which is crazy!!), I am now on modified bed rest due to early contractions. You wonâ€™t see me around town nearly as much, butÂ nearly at the halfway markÂ of this pregnancy we are still rejoicing over this little one and the plans that God had laid for us before we even knew what we wanted.
We are expecting this miracle baby to join our family in January 2016! Thank you all for your encouragement, prayers, and support! Needless to say, this means that I will not be taking any more clients for this year, as I care for myself and our baby. I hope to see you all back at it in the Spring!
“He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed,Â miracles that cannot be counted.” – Job 5:9 (NIV)